2005-08-11 - 7:15 p.m.
i'm hiding away in my partially empty, partially invaded bedroom. i'm half moved out, and brian is slowly moving in.
i'm waiting for jessie* to call me so we can go to the gym. she's thinking about joining.
i've had a bit of a gym addiction this summer. until yesterday, when my body was too pouty and grumpy to ignore, i had a 17-day streak of nonstop gym-going. usually, i take saturdays off, but i ended up going anyway the last two saturdays.
i've lost about 20 pounds in the last 10 weeks. it just keeps steadily disappearing, 2 pounds a week. i'm sure it has a lot to do with my exercising, but i think it's also my new medication. i was on lexapro, for my student-teaching-related anxiety, but that shit made me frigid, so my doctor switched me to wellbutrin. ever since i started taking the wellbutrin, i've been losing weight and eating a lot less.
after the first 10-12 pounds, i mentioned it to my mom. she told me that wellbutrin is prescribed for people who want to quit smoking. so maybe it has some anti-compulsion element to it.
anyway - blah blah i'm so fat i'm so skinny - very boring.
i'm reading ann pratchett's memoir "truth and beauty." i started to read it out of obligation - a friend loaned it to me. but, i was impressed and intrigued early on. it's not so much about the author as it is about her friend, lucy grealy.
female friendships always amaze me. i was going to write a senior thesis about margaret atwood's dismal depiction of female friendship, but my laziness and fear cancelled out that plan.
anyway, this book is good - it's about the most intense and loving female friendship i've ever known. and, there's a lot of potential cross-reading, since the two main "characters" are writers. lucy grealy has an essay in "minding the body," which i stopped to read midway through "truth and beauty."
