2004-08-24 - 4:29 p.m.
sara is leaving for california tomorrow morning. so sad. she was crying a moment ago when we said goodbye. i wasnt crying, but i felt sad too. she probably wanted me to cry, or maybe im just being hyper self-conscious.
sara will have a great time in california. she'll be in art school and she'll have a million new people to meet. plus cassie and nick will be out there with her the first week or so. i feel like a bad sister, first not crying, then not going out there to help her settle in.
i was at my parents house for the last couple days. i was in such a bad mood at first. i always resent having to spend time away from brian. its silly. i have my own life, i should be more emotionally independent.
dad and i pretty much finished the bedframe. the side rails need a couple more coats of oil. then it will be ready set up! my first real piece of furniture! i want to make all kinds of more stuff - nightstands, tables, everything.
dads getting fat. he keeps complaining about it, but then he just eats more nuts and drinks more wine. i always make him take walks with me.
on monday mom and i went to a teachers conference about children with disabilities - autism, asperger's, ADD/ADHD/ODD, school refusal... it was ok, but it was run by a bunch of psychiatrists who talked down to the audience of teachers and focused way too much on medication.
"school refusal" is a funny term. it basically means all those kids who skip class all the time. some of them are apparently certifiable. i was never one of those kids. i was more the quietly miserable type. i wonder what school refusers would think if they could hear a bunch of teachers and psychiatrists talking about their mental issues. i should ask dan, he was a big time refuser.
i watched a lot of tv. damn those sexy olympics.
today mom and i drove to illinois to see a vision therapist. he was super nerdy and rather unscientific. and he made me cry! im not sure yet if i really want to get into this program. id have to get new glasses with "therapeutic" lenses. and id have to do eye exercises for an hour everyday. my prescription is pretty bad, i think its close to -12 in each eye.
well, mom said i can quit my job if i promise to do the eye therapy. so it might be worth it. 12 hours of library work replaced by 5 hours of eye workouts. i guess that is tempting. but i like my library pals!
in the car on the way back to madison, i was in a much better mood. i told mom about when brians parents "helped" us move in. when i got to the part when brian's mom locked herself in the bathroom to cry, my mom shrieked with laughter. no, my moms not a bitch. it actually is hilarious that brian's mom would cry about us "living in sin," although we've been living together for two years now, and that whole marriage stuff is a bunch of mindless bullshit anyway. my mom is pretty cool sometimes. she actually shrieked with laughter.
oh i forgot, i wrote sara a goodbye haiku. its called "vanilla misses chocolate."
a booty cant bump
a snaggle cannot snaggle
ohne meine Schwes'!
ok so its not very pretty. but it comes from the heart, so there!!!
