2005-11-29 - 7:16 p.m.
so i think i have a new boyfriend. a guy who calls me his girlfriend is probably my boyfriend, yes?
i went through the nausea and regret stage starting the instant he kissed me in my car while interpol was playing. "retreat! retreat!" was all i could think.
but i've definately warmed up to him again since then. i don't know why i always go through that weird stage at first. at least i know that if i can manage to hold back the vomit for a couple of days, everything will become wonderful and glorious.
it turns out that eric is incredibly hot in bed. so so hot.
its nice to have a big lusty boyfriend for a change. i also like how he is so much fun - he cracks like 80 million jokes a minute. about half of them are actually funny or make sense.
he is so open too. he tells me so much that surprises me because i would be too afraid to say the things he says. he is not afraid to hide his enthusiasm - i guess that's it.
he came out for wine with a few of my library friends last night. mick was there. and so they met. it was very very stressful for me. trisha called them "brothers." that was so embarrassing. they are a lot alike i suppose, although mick is way more depressive. maybe eric is a manifestation of my long-standing crush on mick. or maybe mick is just a warm-up to eric.
anyway, i am pretty darn happy at the moment. i do the smile-for-no-reason thing randomly all day. i can't wait to see eric again tonight. he bought me a toothbrush. so incredibly sweet.
