2004-08-06 - 6:48 p.m.
i drank way too much last night. i was just so happy to be finally done with my stupid history take home final. 12 pages of pure crap. is summarization that worthwhile of a skill? is it really worth three credits, and ultimately a college degree?
i almost lost the file!!! id emailed the partly finished paper to myself from a computer lab. when i was working on it at home, i didnt realize id been saving it to a temporary internet file. it took half an hour, a fight with my boyfriend, and a lot of jesus cursing before i could find the stupid thing. really, it wouldve been pretty easy to rewrite the part i lost, but it was just such a loathsome paper that i wanted to forget about it forever!!
so then i went to work, after turning in the paper and eating custard with brian. laura was there. shes so stunning, she stuns me. i always want to talk to her, and i can barely look at her when i do. im so sad shes leaving soon. in a week! she didnt tell me or anyone else. shes been promising to meet me at yoga sometime, but she never does. i asked her, where are going? why are you leaving the library? she said spain, and i was like, o, well spain is a lot better than this place.
she said, i was thinking about you the other day. and my whole body was on alert. i was like "waahaa??" i mean, i didnt say it, but im sure it was all over my silly face. an image flashed in my head, of laura laying on her tummy on her bed, with her feet kinda kicking the air, thinking dreamily about me...
she almost fell over doing the same yoga pose that propelled me into an involuntary sommersault a few weeks ago. thats what made her think of me. yay! such a happy.
brook was working too. i used to have a huge crush on her, until i realized how stupid she is. i must have looked cute that day, because she was flirting with me extra hard. plus i was playing dressy bessy, and maybe the girly music created some kind of psuedo lesbo aura down there in the library basement. anyway, it feels so good to flirt with girls. theyre so pretty and the smiles are so good.
but back to drinking too much. i was sitting on the terrace with luke and resh and greg and jenny and some other guy. drinking free beer. swooning over dogs. watching this awesome little girl tyrannize the ducks. we were there for 6 hours. i drank so much beer, and had not eaten dinner. i was getting really silly. i kept going up to the bar, where brian was working, and just gabbing to his coworkers, who i normally never talk to. i cant believe i was fully entertained at a picnic table surround by ducks for a full six hours, but i really was. when we were walking home, i tried to ride brians bike, but he and luke wouldnt let me get more than fifty feet before they pulled me off. super silly.
i paid for it today. usually i dont get hung over, but i guess i didnt drink enough water, and it was so stupid not to eat dinner. mom came to visit and help sara move out, and i was such a bitchy grump. mom was tired too though, and we both took a 45 minute nap in the living room.
i think i will go to gym now. somewhere in the back of my mind is some loose intention of losing an ambiguous amount of weight. im supposed to go out again with luke, his brother is in town. we talked about doing dxm...but i think ill pass it up. tomorrow is brian's niece's birthday party, and it wouldnt be very cool to show up with a double hangover.
