2004-08-25 - 7:54 p.m.
some things i accomplished today...
1. quit my wonderful library job. it was tough. i knew my intentions would crumble quickly if i didnt get it over with right away. i lied a little bit, to make my short notice somewhat less obnoxious. tom said i can come back anytime i want in the next year. so thats reassuring.
the truth is that i dont want to quit the library. i dont want to do my practicum with seventh graders this semester. i dont want to report to class, write papers, or take exams. i want to keep on living the way i live every summer vacation. i want a lifetime of part time jobs and recreational reading.
2. paid sisterly dues. i used the bag sara made me today. its a purse-like bag, and i dont do well with purses, but i found a way to make it work. i also called her (she and mom just flew in to california). i also sent a retraction to my previously angry and mean email (last night we got into a screaming match, and since she stormed off before i could finish my ranting, i emailed it to her.)
3. ate 1 of 9 red bell peppers currently living in my fridge. dont ask how i managed to acquire an entire throng of peppers, it all happened so fast.
4. sucked up a minimum of 10 black flies with the vacuum hose attachment. so sick! the apartment is missing screens on a couple of windows, and we didnt think it was going to be a problem until one day we noticed about 50 flies buzzing around the place. why only flies? so strange.
last night brian and i were both mega depressed. i picked him up from the ceramics studio still sobbing from the fight with sara. he was pissed because he fucked up his pour spout on his new mould for the 6th time. we laid on the bed feeling sorry for ourselves. we couldnt comfort one another, since we were both buried in a personal pit of despair.
finally, i got away from him, and distracted myself by scrubbing a very dirty baking pan. with that done, i looked up at all the flies buzzing around. i felt manic and panicked by all the flying disgusting little things. i took a towel and started whipping them.
brian eventually got up to see what the commotion was all about. he joined in on the fly massacre. i got about 5 flies or so, and he got a bunch too. it was so gross; after we got one, we'd have to hunt around for the fly corpse and pick it up with a napkin. sometimes the fly would still be twitching on the floor. eeeeew. anyway, the fly massacre was strangely exhilerating. i think it did us both some good, although i spent the rest of my night watching Elimidate and Becker. we did sleep well, i suppose.
