2006-01-18 - 6:48 p.m.
i had kind of a 'bad week' last week, and its trailing over into this week. YET im also stupidly happy over the whole eric situation, so i keep wavering between gleefully grinning and mournfully moping.
it all started last monday when i gimped out my foot. then a series of other things piled up, including erics dad needing heart surgery. i wont get into all the bad things that heppened.
then today i had to pay some schmoe 60 bucks to unlock my car.
but tomorrow should be an auspicious day since it marks 2 months since eric kissed me in november! the great thing about eric is that i can totally celebrate our 2 month anniversary without feeling like a crazy person. and so, i drew him a little cartoon of our first kiss situation and wrote him a thank-you note on the back. its my little reward to him for mentioning the _exact date_ of the smooch a few weeks ago. i guess we are both a little crazy.
eric makes me feel so normal! he does such freaky weird stuff regarding our relationship that there is no room for me to be embarrassed about any silly cartoon or phone call or idea or anything. one day i walked into his room and he had collected a bunch of notes and drawings i had given him and framed them into a kind of collage. he brought pictures of me to show his family. these things seem creepy on paper, but really they are sweet. he just does all those dorky things everyone else wants to do but doesnt - or does in secret private.
i feel like i need to be more honest with him about my 'problems' - or problematic tendencies. i dont want him to feel like he has to fix me (ha) - but i dont want things to blow up in my face later and feel like a liar. anyway, i have good handle on all my tendencies now, and so its easier to talk about them.
now i just need to get eric to have a serious convo with me. we are always joking around or having fabulous sex.
