2005-08-05 - 6:21 p.m.
BiggestLoserOnEarth
= me, pyrena
it did NOT rain the other night. ergo, no ride necessary for M. shit shit shit. plus i acted like the biggest retard that evening. biggest retard.
i worked with him again this morning. this time, at least, i managed to form sentences directed towards him in his presence. heh. i've gotten to the point of nervousness that i can't even talk to him normally. i'm either mute or i blather about stupid shit, just to fill space.
today i mostly blathered.
i also tripped over something as i unneccessarily rolled my cart closer to him. idiot!
but the kicker comes last. i left, and waited for him to leave, blathered some more. then we parted ways to get our bikes, which we park in separate locations. i park inside, he parks outside.
as usual, i pulled my bike outside, and crossed paths with him as he was unlocking his bike. i asked him, "Are you hungry? Do you want to get lunch?"
then i died.
jk. then he said something like, "alas, i can't. i have to get to work very soon."
then i said, "oh, your other job. do you work a lot? how much do you work?"
"48 hours a week."
then he thanked me for the invitation, or something like that. then i said, "see you later," and struggled with my bike because the chain had fallen loose.
BLOE
BLOE with nasty black bike grease all over her hand. god, i bet he could here my chain clanking as he rode off.
ARGHHHHH!!!!!!!!! when i got home, i told brian all about it. weird.
i found the perfect little efficiency today. hopefully they'll accept my application right away. it's in the same neighborhood, except on a much prettier street. it's on the second floor, and has wood floors and a bay window that looks out onto the street. i love it. i think the bathtub might even be acceptable for soaks.
please like me M. please please like me. then we can make out and fuck on my bed as the light streams in from my bay window.
what bugs me about the lunch invitation incident is his lack of delight. if he really likes me, he would have had a big old grin on his face. i think. I would have had a big old grin, anyway.
