2004-05-05 - 6:41 p.m.
diaryland...you win! i was all about to scribble in 3fatchicks, but then i was like...um...why publish bad press?
my tummy hurts much right now. i dont know what the hell i ate to make it do this to me. at school i had the last few bites of 3-days-old sandwich, an orange, a nutrigrain bar, some nuts and raisins, and an deluxe ice cream bar. so that was normal to excessive. not healthy at all! poo. then after school i had two pieces of banana bread and butter, a bean burrito, half a handful of chocolate chips, and a graham cracker cookie shaped like a fish. so what the heck?!? who is the culprit?
im also experiencing vulvular pain. its not as bad as it was monday night. wow that was awful. i hurried home after watching some six feet under at eriks (season 2!!), in total pain. like too much blood in the clit, with cramping -- but not in the uterus -- in the actual vagina and vulva areas. weird! ive had this before, but not this intensely.
usually a fuck can cure this issue. but brian was "tired." i feel like such a total cow. how many women have to deal with frigid men?!?!
so this is the wierdness of that evening...
i was like, "brian, i am in pain, and i need relief." ("too ti-erd...") "well, fuck you then. i'll take care of it myself..."
so i pulled out the old vibrator, and buzzed away, with brian right next to me. hell, i didnt give a shit. (well, it was somewhat awkward, but i was in so much pain, i found a way to overcome the shame.)
i just lay there a long time with the thing basically massaging my cramping muscles, and drawing some blood out of my almost bursting clitoris.
jesus, does any other woman in the world have this problem? or am i a total freak.
speaking of freaky things. i think i may be the only human being on the planet that is addicted to the sweet sweet smell of their boyfriend's "nose breath."
