2004-03-16 - 9:15 p.m.
wow my last entry was so totally lame. wah im fat. wah i want a baby. la-ame.
im just writing to remind myself i am alive and i do have a creative voice, when there is time.
this semester has been just as busy as last semester, but way less stressful. my brain is well rested.
the worst feeling ive felt is this awful idea that i am wasting time. which i probably am. but thats what money making is all about, wasting time. im not even making any money yet! student teaching is slave labor! no! worse than slave labor - i actually pay to do this work!!!
but i do love shabazz. the high school, i mean. i love it love it love it. i cant imagine student teaching at a middle school next year without going insane. i can barely imagine working at a typical high school some day without losing my mind. o o shabazz...
im all alone tonight. what should i do? soooo tired. i guess i will just fall asleep to everybody loves raymond.
i hope i have more sex dreams. last night i dreamt dan was trying to fuck me, and i stupidly kept getting out of it! its just dream sex, dummy! thats not really cheating. i guess it goes to show that i really love brian. or that i am extremely paranoid about getting caught and punished.
