2003-11-09 - 5:56 p.m.
i havent been eating sugar (not yesterday, not today). and i feel pretty good...except that my brain doesnt work!!!
i cant focus on my homework, not even the readings. i guess i can think pretty well about other things, so it must be a selective boycott against school-related thinking.
argh! i am too old to be in college. its like spending a fifth year in high school, its just so not cool at all. i wish i hadnt been accepted into any stupid programs, not the writing fellows, not teacher ed. then i could just be drifting through life in the slow lane, easy and cheap, shopping at big lots.
i wish i could take a year off to do nothing. just work 20 hours a week at the library, and spend some time sorting things out.
i have so many things to do!
1. release my yoga spirit
2. actually cook and eat the vegetables i buy
3. create one the billions of ceramics sculptures that are waiting around in my head
4. get over my sugar addiction* without having to worry about writing research papers
5. spend more time with my sister
6. spend more time with my friends
7. visit kristi at the farm
8. take my mountain bike out in the woods, where it belongs
9. beat Alice, the first person shooter video game
10. volunteer at the humane society as a doggy lover
11. whatever the fuck else i feel like doing with myself on any given day!!!
*sister, friends, dont worry, the sugar thing isnt a weight loss craze, im just freaked out about diabetes, and the fact that apples dont taste good to me anymore (cuz they aint got enuf SWEET!).
